What do you say about a girl who was in her early 20's, people's darling, and lost her life on her birth day? Feeling a little blue today. Got news that a young girl from college lost her life today, her birthday (may her soul rest in peace)... Makes me overthink everything about life and only one thing comes to mind then.. sometimes, it is just not fair. Even though I didn't know her personally, I know people who were best mates with her, and that makes me want to just fix everything. If only I had the power in my hands. I'm sorry this is how the circle of life works.
I'll share today, something I wrote a few years ago for somebody very very special.. when he passed away, my heart sank too deep. It had never happened to me before.
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What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive..
If you only had that one day to live, what would you do? What would you say?
If you knew someone who had only a day to live, what would you tell them? How many years have you been holding anything back? Would you apologize? Would you confess? What secrets would come out in the next 24 hours? Could you... would you save a life, if they had only a day to live?
I would.. if only I could..
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The day you died, my world came crashing down. Imagine what it must've been like for me. I felt betrayed, I felt like you just left. Did I even get to say goodbye? Or I love you? Sometimes, I get the impression the soul is a parade of life against my will. I hated the news of you going away, but then I thought, "Maybe it doesn't hurt anymore."
It's so easy for me now, as I sit here comfortably typing away at my computer, to spout the things that have always been on my mind, as if I had been saying them all the time... Why didn't I? I had so much to tell you! So much to learn from you! So many things that I feel are eating me inside now. I find myself talking to you everyday and think after a while.. "Are you listening?" I'll wait for tomorrow when you answer me.
I don't ever remember saying those words to you. I love you. I always just assumed you knew I loved you. Unconditionally.
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The fragment above was published in a book dedicated to this special person in my life. 'A Brahmin Without Caste'. http://www.vediceye.com/vediceye/b_0.htm
Life is full of bumps and breaks... in the end, it really is on us to decide if we should celebrate or mourn the ones who are gone. I choose to celebrate each moment I spent with the ones who went away. I remember them with happiness because I know it was their time, they are in a better place. After all, stars shine brighter up in the sky.
xxo
Vi
I'll share today, something I wrote a few years ago for somebody very very special.. when he passed away, my heart sank too deep. It had never happened to me before.
..........................................................................
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive..
If you only had that one day to live, what would you do? What would you say?
If you knew someone who had only a day to live, what would you tell them? How many years have you been holding anything back? Would you apologize? Would you confess? What secrets would come out in the next 24 hours? Could you... would you save a life, if they had only a day to live?
I would.. if only I could..
...
The day you died, my world came crashing down. Imagine what it must've been like for me. I felt betrayed, I felt like you just left. Did I even get to say goodbye? Or I love you? Sometimes, I get the impression the soul is a parade of life against my will. I hated the news of you going away, but then I thought, "Maybe it doesn't hurt anymore."
It's so easy for me now, as I sit here comfortably typing away at my computer, to spout the things that have always been on my mind, as if I had been saying them all the time... Why didn't I? I had so much to tell you! So much to learn from you! So many things that I feel are eating me inside now. I find myself talking to you everyday and think after a while.. "Are you listening?" I'll wait for tomorrow when you answer me.
I don't ever remember saying those words to you. I love you. I always just assumed you knew I loved you. Unconditionally.
...........................................................................
The fragment above was published in a book dedicated to this special person in my life. 'A Brahmin Without Caste'. http://www.vediceye.com/vediceye/b_0.htm
Life is full of bumps and breaks... in the end, it really is on us to decide if we should celebrate or mourn the ones who are gone. I choose to celebrate each moment I spent with the ones who went away. I remember them with happiness because I know it was their time, they are in a better place. After all, stars shine brighter up in the sky.
xxo
Vi
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